IT'S MY ONE YEAR BREAKIVERSARY!!
I broke up with my (ex)boyfriend ONE YEAR AGO today. And it's been about as long since I've spoken to him.
I've been anticipating this day because, in some way I thought it would mean something- something like... "I've made it." I'm now at a place from which I get to look back at a large, definite block of time and see that I've made it that much further in the direction that I've wanted to be in all along. It's making my progress and success quantifiable to me I suppose. I hope that makes some sense.
As sad as it is, because he is someone that I care/d very much for, I just want to celebrate these days. I feel SO happy and grateful for where my life is now. I don't always manage it the best or feel constant gladness through my trials or bad days, but in ending our relationship, I was set free. Set free from a relationship that, if continued, was a barrier between me and living my religion and testimony to the fullest degree. Set free from the burden of feeling unsatisfactory to him. Set free from desperation for change. Set free from false hope. I was set free to pursue the things that I believe in and love most. And I'm still doing it...
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good for you! i loved your freedom post.
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