I want to try out for American Idol. SORT OF.
I know I've established this desire publicly before, but I just realized it again, and also "but"- it's still ridiculous! Here's why:
I've never sung for anyone before! I sing hymns with everyone else in church and occasionally I get a really nice compliment from someone sitting close enough to hear me, or I'll break out into a quick little jokish song sometimes with friends, and someone will tell me I have a good voice. THAT'S IT. But last night as I was listening to some of the contestants in the top 10 or whatever on AI I couldn't help but believe "I'm pretty sure I can sing better than that." But I'm sure it's a whole different ball game on that giant stage with all the people watching, and the nerves, and the loud music, and the STUPID BACK UP SINGERS!!! (Side note: It sounds to me like the back up singers are SINGING IN AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT KEY AND THEY MAKE EVERY SONG SOUND SO CRAPPY THAT THEY CONTRIBUTE TO!! Why why why why why?!!?! It frustrates me because I put myself in that situation and I'd hate it if they were ruining MY song.)
Also- I don't really have the desire to be a performer or be famous. Haha, I'm sure I'd get over both of those quick though. I do like me some attention and may or may not be known as entertaining already, haha.
So maybe it doesn't have to be American Idol, but if I do have a good voice, I'd like an outlet for it. I have a poetry/song journal for just in case I ever get around to making music. I think the first step is singing in a quartet in church or something. And then work up to solo. Ugh. Makes me nervous just thinking about it.
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