It doesn't matter how 'GREAT' it is that I'm 'so honest with myself' or recognize my faults and yadda yadda yadda... I'm still a huge brat/jerk/insensitive person sometimes.
I'm still working on The Color Code (now known as The People Code) and there was a section about when people act in a way that doesn't go along with their innate color/motive- when they display the limitations of another color other than their main color- he said that people are less forgiving of that behavior or more uncomfortable. I just feel like I have tons of the negative aspects of my THREE personalities. I'm super complex and scary :'( I want to stop being an angry, mean, tactless, sometimes-violent, lazy, impatient, stubborn girl!! Too many flaaawwwwsssssss...
I'm in a bad mood today and maybe this week. I'm not always this hard on myself. And I'm not always this meanangrytactlessetc as I'm being today... but I don't want to keep coming back to this and hating myself and being sorry for all the people that have to deal with me. I just want to be awesome.
P.S. It's very BLUE of me to be telling you guys all this. Just spilling my guts for the sake of being understood.
you forgot obsessed with the color code book in describing yourself. ;)
ReplyDeletewe love you and think you are, cute some days, beautiful on others, you are creative in thinking and in doing. you are a fun and funny, talented and kooky. I know you are trying to figure yourself out more and I commend you. we all need to know ourselves and love that person before the rest of our happinesses come our way. Good luck, we love you (again). xoox
i'm violent sometimes
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