Ashley's gotta stop eating dairy if she is going to feel good.

I called in sick today. For the first time since my fourth day of work. That was in February.

Since Sunday I've felt just kinda crappy. I went to work on Monday though. But last night my headache returned pretty badly right before I went to bed, and when I woke up 8 hours later I wasn't feeling too great or that jazzed about going to work. Fast forward a bunch of hours to where I go to the health food store and talk to this lady who convinced me that my ailments are all diet-related.

She's right.

She must be.

I'm lactose-intolerant and I keep eating dairy. I justify it when it's yogurt (full of happily digested pro-biotics) or aged cheeses that don't make me immediately uncomfortable or ill. But milk, ice cream, delicious moldy cheeses (feta, bleu), cream cheese... I know better! My headache intensified last night after eating a bagel and cream cheese, for heaven's sake! (Bagel with PUMPKIN SPICE cream cheese! YUM!!) Whenever I feel sick, the food I'm most repulsed by is dairy. Don't you think my body/mind is trying to tell me something? She named off the top 5 types of food that affect people's well being:

Dairy

Gluten

Corn (?!)

Peanuts!!!

Refined sugar

Well last night I bought not just that delicious cream cheese, but a 7 lb bag of shredded Mexican cheese, but bagels and bread and other bready-cheesy things, a fresh jar of crunchy peanut butter, and other such things that I'm now being prompted to eliminate from my life.

I just feel sad and burdened right now. I have a lot going on- I've got some emotional/dude troubles, I don't feel good, I'm spending tons of money on food I'm not even supposed to be eating, I have more bills I'm supposed to take on, got a new calling (that I'm excited about but it's going to be added stress), I'm getting really sick of my job... and last but not least it's "puke-season" so my phobia will put a damper on everything until New Years unless I keep it under control.

I kinda just don't know where to start. But I can't change the past, I can only make good decisions going forward. I have to take care of myself physically so I can be strengthened emotionally and mentally. And you know... pray and read my scriptures of course. Gotta have a little faith.